Being gay famine raises the eye of certain people when you walk by or happen to be in the same room as them. For example while having dinner my mom asked what’s wrong with you eye? My sister knowing that i wear mascara started yelling and just has to get in everyones business “oh hes wearing MASCARA, hes Wearing MASCARA!!!”. In my head bitch STFU!!! My mother looks at me and looks down! my father then goes and kinda facepalms himself and then after a long sigh he looks at me and tells me to stop doing whatever im doing and to check if its “right”. He continues ranting about how i can continue and be myself (gay) but not have to do these things because it isnt right. From his words. ” you can still be yourself, and not have to do these things, why do you do these things, to get noticed, is it because you will think your popular?” then he said it! “Do you know what, what your doing is called, its called “kalandian” (thats tagalog and it closely translates to being basically being too gay and acting like a girl). FYI the whole time this was happening we were at the dinner table and i was just quiet and was looking down my plate -_- in my head i was thinking if they accepted me in the beginning they would not care about something this little. My sister wears mascara and shit why cant i wear that! is it because im a boy! i dont care! people need to stop being narrow minded!!!! My dad keeps saying for me to check if what im doing is “right” in my head he is just covering shit up!! what hes really trying to say is that he is ashamed and doesnt want people to see me looking like a girl. Being catholic it will raise alot of attention. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate this! and i dont care! this is me BEING ME!! and you cant do anything about it!! if you have a problem with me being gay, wearing make up, mascara, heels and other shit that i like to do well you know what! go stand with the haters. father or not you can either support me and accept me for who i am or stand and protest like the other haters and force people like me to hide ourselves! im not gonna do any of that shit! im done hiding! im breaking FREE!!!